slow down...speed bump ahead

It's been a long time since I have blogged about our journey to parenthood. Where are we at in our journey? We are at a speed bump, we had to slow down for a bit. We both were getting really stressed out with all of the TTC stuff. We also never really grieved and healed from the pain of losing Jellybean. So for right now, S and I are taking time for ourselves. I've been pampering myself - taking bubble baths, giving myself manicures and pedicures, buying new bras and clothes. It's been nice. We make love when we want to. Yes, I said make love, not BDing but making love. We are not trying right now but we aren't preventing it. If it happens it happens. We have an appointment with the specialist in January so for now we are just relaxing and going with the flow. I'm going to try to update more, get more of my feelings about TTC and TAB and my M/C out in the open instead of shoving them deep down inside of myself and letting them fester until I have a nervous breakdown. That's what point I was at when we decided to take a break. So for now, my thinking is "Que Sera sera, whatever will be will be"...until we go to the specialist, then I can obsess about TTC again :p