When will it be my turn?

Did anyone watch The Office baby show last night? I love that show. I don't watch it on a regular basis and usually catch it in reruns. I've seen the previews for last nights show for a week or 2 now. I couldn't watch it. I just couldn't. Why does it seem like everywhere I look there are pregnant women and babies galore? So I skipped watching The Office baby show for my own sanity and self preservation.

Has your DH or SO ever told you something that completely melted your heart and you realize how much they really do love you? And it's something that they don't even realize means so much to you. S's friend from work was going to the beach with another friend this weekend. He asked S if he wanted to go with them. S said no because he couldn't get off work and we were saving money for WDW. After his friend arrived at the beach he called S while he was at work saying that he should have came with them. He went on to tell S how much they had drank and that the condo next to theirs had 4 single girls staying in it and they were trying to get the girls to come over and "party" with them. Ugh, single guys. S told his "friend" that that was not his scene. He is a married man. He didn't want to get drunk and possibly do something that he would regret or that would hurt me. He didn't want to be getting drunk with them while they were trying to "hook up" with a bunch of single girls at the beach. S's "friend" told him that he would let him do whatever he wanted and would never tell on him. WHAT! I was in shock. I thought it was a total disrespect to 1. ME 2. S's and mines marriage and 3. S himself. Guess what...S said the same exact thing. It just melted my heart. He doesn't want to go out getting drunk chasing girls. He wants to be at home with me. *sighs* I just love that man. It was then that S and I got to talking about how people change. Sometimes, you may be great friends with someone when you are a teenager or during a certain part of your life. But then, people grow, people mature, sometimes differently. That is what has happened with a lot of people I once knew.

Speaking of everywhere I look seeing pregnant women or babies, my 18 y/o male cousin has moved in with his 16 y/o pregnant (by another man) girlfriend (1st gf) whom he has known for exactly 1 month. Do I really have to go into how this makes me feel? If you have suffered with IF or have had a difficult time TTC you probably know how I feel about this one. First, I love my cousin and don't want to see him get hurt. He is at a crossroads right now and I hope he chooses the right path for him, whatever that may be. Second, it's just not friggin fair that God or life or whatever controls the universe would allow a 16 y/o kid get pregnant and not me. This girl's "baby daddy" left her, she lives at home with her parents, she has a "reputation" around town, and it's just not fair. When will it be my turn? S and I are ready. We are in a loving relationship, we have been married going on 6 years. We are both emotionally and financially ready for a child of our own. We WANT this. When oh when oh when will it be our turn?

Yesterday was my weigh-in day for the week. I was down another 1.5 lbs! Woohoo! That is a total weight loss of 21 lbs since the first of the year. I've just got, well, A LOT more to go, let's leave it at that.

Tomorrow my CBE FM should ask me to POAS. Is it weird that I'm excited about this? I'm curious too to see when or if the CBE FM says I'm O'ing.

I'm ready for it to be my turn. Like so ready.