Well, the bad news is that I got AF. Boo. The good news is that my last cycle was 32 days. The bad news, again, is that I really don't think I O'd this past cycle. The good news is that I will be trying out the CBE fertility monitor this cycle.
I'm trying to not get discouraged. I'm trying to think positive. I'm wondering if my weight loss is helping to get me more to a "normal" cycle length. I hope that I did O this past cycle and that I just missed it with the OPKs.
I've been trying to keep busy with school work and planning our WDW trip. Trying not to think too much about TTC. Trying not to think too much about how easy it seems to be for everyone else. Trying not to think of how unfair this is. I would be 31 weeks this Wednesday. I know I shouldn't keep reminding myself of how far along I would be but I can't help it. Every Wednesday I think I should be "X" weeks pregnant today. I think about how S and I would be finishing up on the nursery. I think about how I would be going to the doctor every 1-2 weeks now. I think about how big my tummy would be with mine and S's baby growing inside. I think about how we would have known for weeks now what the sex of our baby was. I think about it being about time for my baby shower. Gah! I just think way too much. So that is why school work and planning the WDW trip are nice distractions. It gives me something else to think about. It gives me a break from driving myself crazy with all this thinking.
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