Sometimes words just can't express everything that I am feeling. I started off with a blank piece of paper. I added black pastels and smeared it over the entire sheet. I then added water colors in deep dark reds. I lightly brushed diluted black pain over one side of the paper, which represents all the dark feelings associated with my miscarriage, the dark feelings that I am pouring out of my heart. The heart was created on a seperate sheet of paper, cut out, and pasted onto my painted sheet. I included torn pieces of paper, cardboard, and aluminum foil on the cut out heart to create dimension and ruggedness, signifying the hurt and pain my heart has experienced. Deep dark red paint is painted over the heart. I outlined the heart in black paint, a shell that has formed around my heart. The shell is exploding on the right side of the paper with all of the dark feelings pouring out and going off the edge of the paper. The reds on the left side and bottom of the sheet signifies hurt, pain, anger, and fear that surrounds my heart.
I am not an artist. Most people will probably think this looks like sh*t but it is my feelings poured out onto paper in a way that needs no words. A way that I can express my feelings when I can't find the words.
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