where is my +OPK?

Yesterday was CD24. I still have not gotten a + OPK. UGH! I'm seriously thinking this cycle may be annovulatory. I'm going to continue taking OPK's for a few more days. At least next cycle I have the CBE fertility monitor to try out. Maybe it will be more accurate and easier to use. I've got to start doing better on my diet and exercise. I'm still doing it I'm just not doing as much as I know I could be. I found a couple of quotes today that helped inspire me:

Stop finding excuses for not doing something.....start thinking of potential rewards.

The reason most people fail instead of succeed.....they trade what they want the MOST for what they want at the MOMENT.

I printed those out and I've got a copy on my treadclimber and a copy on my whiteboard so I can look at them while I'm exercising, just a little something to help with motivation.

Yesterday was my niece's school beauty walk and she won! She won in her division and she won Miss Congeniality. I am so proud of her! My dad came down to go to the beauty walk and then he came over here to eat supper with S and I. While I was getting supper together he started talking about the Adkins diet. He said my cousin was alternating it with another diet every other week. He also told me that she is pregnant. WHAT!? She is dieting while she is pregnant? And he said that she would lose like 8-10 lbs when she did the Adkins diet for a week. WHAT!? I really hope he has his facts wrong and that she was doing that before she got pregnant and not while she is pregnant. I didn't even know she was pregnant. Oh, and guess when she is due.....May. Yep, my due date month. *sighs*

S could tell I was upset. Of course I had all kinds of dreams about babies and TTC last night. One of the dreams was that I had numerous miscarriages and no baby yet (I think that one was because we watched The Time Traveler's Wife the other night). So I was at the hospital talking to my doctor and I was telling her about not getting a +OPK this cycle and she was saying we could try Clomid again. Maybe this was my subconscious letting me know that deep down I really do want to try the Clomid again. I'm going to stick to the plan though. We are going to try the CBE FM for the remainder of this year while I diet and exercise and really work on losing some weight. Then we can try Clomid again, maybe late fall or after the first of the year.

I know it will happen, some day, some how. It just sucks that everybody else can have numerous children and S and I are struggling for our first. It also sucks that some of the people that can have children so easily are the ones that don't want them.....or the young'uns who aren't responsible enough to have them (I'm not saying that all young'uns are not responsible enough to have children but the majority of them seem like it).....or the ones who have drug addict husbands....*sighs*. Speaking of young'uns who aren't responsible enough to have children.....my 18 y/o cousin is dating a girl that is pregnant (she is 16 y/o). It's not his baby. He says that he is going to "stick it out" with her though. *sighs* Sometimes I just really really really feel like this is just not fair. I know I know I know that there is a reason for everything but right now I just feel like poo.